Crazy Drugs- Clarification

No, I am not taking some fun painkiller that is making my brain foggy. The crazy drug I am taking is terbutaline for my contractions.

A lot of you understand this drug, but I'll explain for the others. Terbutaline is like speed for pregnant women. My hands shake, and my brain doesn't function well. I can't really finish a thought. My mind goes to three different things before I am able to finish a sentence.

I seriously debated whether or not to take it. Without it, I have contractions every two minutes. At first I thought this may be preferable to being crazy. The contractions are not strong enough to put me into preterm labor. But they make me really crampy, and make me have to pee, and make it hard/impossible for my placenta to heal. SO for at least the next week I will be crazier than usual.

Speaking of crazy drugs, they made me take stadol in the hospital. Stadol is the craziest drug ever invented. It is what I imagine a really bad acid trip would be like. You can still feel most of the pain, but you don't care as much, and can't do anything about it. In your head, you are doing all sorts of weird things. You can't move, or talk, or open your eyes. I remember hearing the nurses, and not being able to talk to them. When I came out of it, I told them I would never take that crazy drug again as long as I lived.

It may not have been as bad if I knew what I was getting into. I should have known by the nurses' strange reaction to the order. I was expecting something to take the edge off, or at least leave me coherant. I had my phone in my hand ready to call my sister,(dropped it) and had a list of things I needed to do in my head. I had no idea I would be totally incapacitated.

It is apparently the safest pain killer for pregnant women. (Pregnant women who enjoy a good hallucination every now and again). This is the drug they give to women in labor if they are not opposed to drugs, but don't want an epidural. My doc wouldn't give me anything else, so I had the choice between crazy hallucinations and pain. I chose pain.