Wednesday, June 4, 2008

still sick- advice?


You may remember that when I hit 12 weeks and was still sick as a dog I had a little breakdown. I decided that it would take the whole 16 weeks like some of my other pregnancies. When I hit 16 weeks I said to myself, "I am sure i will feel better tomorrow" and as time went on, " I will probably feel better next week". I have realized that I have been living in denial.

I will be 19 weeks tomorrow and am still travelling with a puke cup in my car. What is worse, I am still using it. I am still paying a fortune for zofran, and mostly only using it in the evening so I don't wake up hurling in the middle of the night.

You would think with all of this sickness I would not be as big as a house. Unfortunately, I am managing to keep down enough food to make me quite large. The fact that my usual workout schedule went down the tubes many months ago is not helping. Sporadic treadmill usage and a little yoga just doesn't do the same thing.

The culprit: probably my one whacked out ovary. My hormones are all unbalanced, and that means sickness. I am still holding out hope. It is easier for me if I tell myself that my body could figure things out and return to normal next week. My cysts could just go away. It's possible, right?

Anyhow, this really isn't just a pity post. I am looking for advice. It will be easier to deal with my sick body if I can just get my head straight. Usually I know the best things to do when you have problems of your own:

1. Service. This always seems to help when I am feeling sorry for myself. But I am having a hard time doing just the minimum for my family right now. Any suggestions?

2. gratitude. I love reading other people blog about their weekly blessings. I have always told myself I can't do that project because I didn't start in January. Maybe I should do it anyway. I also love Ashley's posts about "happiness today" She writes a little list about what has made her happy that day. I love it. I need to incorporate something like that into my life.

3.The temple. I haven't been to the temple since before I found out I was pregnant. I am afraid I won't be able to make it through a whole session. Just thinking about what would happen worries me enough to vomit;) Should I just go anyway and have faith that I can make it through? Or should I try to go about getting those blessings some other way?

Any other suggestions? Does anyone else have a sure fire way to make themselves feel better about things when life seems a little too overwhelming?

4 people know I love comments!:

Crazymamaof6 said...

the things that always make me feel better? SHOPPING! a little retail therapy does wonders for me. and my favorite beverage, which is tricky when prego since my fave one makes me sick when prego. so i always have to find a new fave.
oh and a girls night out. takes my mind off being sick. i just have to keep busy so i don't have time to think about how crappy i feel.

good luck! that is NOT FUN!

Vidal's Nest said...

I'm always sick until the day I give birth. It can be pretty depressing. Ask for help if you need it, and don't feel guilty. Life kind of falls apart a little bit and once you have the baby you can slowly pick up the pieces. Your family will survive. My kids laugh about it now. Who would've thought?

Danielle said...

I am so sorry! I have little melt downs periodically too. It stinks doesn't it! Some things that help me are getting to bed early. Try to relax. Stress makes it worse. Phenergan with the Zofran. Mine gets worse when I forget my zoloft. I start having anxiety attacks over it and can't handle it. So if you have reached that point talk to your dr. Don't worry about making it to the temple. You are in a difficult situation right now and the Lord understands that you can't go. Even having the desire to go is good for now. Just go as soon as you are up to it. You could always go and do initiatory instead of session. Get lots of blessings from your hubby. Never think you are asking for too many!

I hope you get some relief soon.

Rhonda said...

Man, I wish I had some advice for you, but I'm in the same boat! I'm so happy to hear that someone else has to have the ever-ready puke cup! I'm of the suck-it-up and deal-with-it philosophy. Because, let's face it, I have no other options. Sorry I'm of no help!